Girl Undecided

I dont get why people that dont know me Insist on telling me how they think my life has been.. LIke for instits People on here saying that since im only 20 and all i write about it guys.. I have only been on here for a cuple of days i didnt have time to tell you my whole fucken life story..
Im not immaute i have been through more then a girl twice my age already.. I have been through a lot.. I told you some of it on the last blog. Read it and shut the fuck up.. I dont want to hear your stupid shit anymore.. About how immature i am and how i havent been through anything but boy stuff ..
Neway on a lighter note.. I got to see my dad for thanksgiving and he was actually sober.. But i had to see his girlfriend and her daugther ahh.. What a drag.. She is so spoiled i hate it.. Oh well sh looked like she gained a cuple of pounds and she got her eyebrows tattoed on lol.. So yeah.. Oh Well i was To excited to see my dads side of the fam.. I love my aunt sue but she was sick and couldnt be there. Caryn was though which was nice i love her.. Miss them so much.. Wish i could see them more but i cant so i guess im not going to stress over the fact that i cant change it. I have to work to make money so yeah.. Lifes to short to worry about the stuff i cant change.

So iam going to set the record straight.. I dont like to hear all the stupid shit that people have been commenting on my page. Im sick of all this stupid shit so here is my life story!!

When i was 5 my parents got divorced. I was forced to move in with my mom because my dad didnt have a steady job and they agreed with my mom!! My mom remarried some idoit with 2 daughters who were spoiled and i hated them..
I would go to my dads house every weekend. But he would never come get me so i would hav...

Date: November 14th
Time:4:55 am
Mood: Depressed
(Names have been abervated and allertered due to respect for peoples privacy)

Why is it that we put are selfs through hell thinking about the past.
God put are eyes in front for a reason. So that we could look forward not back.. Never look back is what i used to say. But i also used to say that a guy would never stop me from doing the things i love.
And well lets face it... That isnt true anymore.
I cant stop thinking about a certain someone in my...

November 10th 2008
7:15 pm
Mood: Down

I had the day off today and all i have been doing is thinking about family and how i havent really seen my lately because i have been working so much. What i want to do with my life in the long run. Thinking about how my ear wont stop being clogged lol. Thinking about how much me and jake have change in the last two years.
Why do we always want to change the things we have no control over. But dont want to change the things we can.??>
Why is it that we push a...

November 10th. 2008
1:37 am
Mood: Irrateted..

So today me and amanda hang out for the first time in a long time. It didnt feel like how it used to lol. We used to be able to joke and be honest with each other about everything she never hid her phone from me and tonight she wouldnt let me see her texts or anything. I hope to god she doesnt follow in everyone of my friends in the past and just stop talking to me.. Most girls dont really stay friends with me for long. I dont really know why eithe...